I thought we were best friends.

A certain someone contacted me and I am upset. I have known this person for most of my life.

I can't believe she had the nerve to contact me after all these years (it has been about 7 years I think). I was stupid to think that she was my best friend. I never realized that she didn't like me until a couple of years ago. I was nice to her, I admired her, I let her use and borrow my things. However, she would get mad when I touched her things. She only liked me on certain days when I had cool stuff or something like that. I can't believe I was blind in this. My mom and sis noticed this thing about her wayy before me, but I didn't believe them and didn't listen. Well, I learned my lesson.

I think she was one of the reasons why I became a shy person and became afraid of people. After we kind of separated, I was afraid that people were not going to like me because I was too "loud".

She was a bad influence on me. I thought she was sooo cool. I followed her and did the same bad things like her. I felt like if I did the same things as her, she would approve of me. She didn't like certain people so I "pretended" to not like some people, too. Even when she wasn't around me, I felt like she affected me or shaped my behavior. I'm happy that we are not friends anymore. I forgave her in my heart a little bit, but still...we can't be friends. She is still the same. So fake.

It's tough to become friends with someone again after they have used you. I don't want to be used again.

Peace <3