This week sucks: Family and Midterms

The past week has been kind of weird.

About a week ago, my family went to visit family in Poland. I would have went with them, but couldn't because of classes.

So I have been basically stuck here all alone with 2 dogs and 2 birds. This is the first time ever.

So quiet without family...

I should be having fun right? I'm all alone, I can do whatever I want, have some time for myself, nobody is controlling me.

Honestly, I kind of miss my family.

At first I felt like I needed some space away from family and I felt fine about them going away. However, a couple of days later, I started to miss them.

My family is pretty dysfunctional. They stress about little things and fight everyday. They never come to an agreement. I complain about them sometimes (but that doesn't mean I don't love them). Their constant fighting and drama annoys me.

And yet I still miss them. There's like this feeling of emptiness without them. I was going to dye my hair and do other girly things, but I have lost all of this motivation. Maybe I will gain back the motivation. Right now things kind of suck especially because of midterms.

Azor and Misiu don't know what is going on. They don't why family is gone so long. Azor keeps following me everywhere. I'm starting to think he has separation anxiety. He cried for at least two days. Misiu doesn't want to eat. Misiu keeps looking out the window and keeps looking at gate outside. He knows that family comes in when gate opens. He also always sees family members coming out of car by looking at the window in front of the house.

poor azor: 

I have a big midterm tomorrow from a tough class and part of me wants to quit the class and other part of me does not want to quit mainly because I paid for this. I remember the professor saying something like this in the beginning of the course, "This is a hard class, I suggest you drop it if you can't do it." Wowwwww, thank you professor for truly motivating me :D...not. Then I thought to myself, "Pfftt. I can do this. I can challenge myself." BOY, was I kind of wrong. There's soo much information that you have to know in the class, especially new information. This is also not the only class I have. I have a couple of other classes. So overwhelming.

Stupid me. Why, Maggie, whyyyy did you pick this class????! xD.
 
Maybe I should wait until after the midterm to drop the class, but I don't know how long it's going to take him to grade the midterm and when he is going to give it back. The last day to drop classes is coming soon. Grrrrr. Maybe I'm overthinking things.

Sister sent pic from Poland:

 Beautiful.